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A Season of Remembering

  • October 1, 2022
  • Lee Mun Wah
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As I’m about to turn seventy-six on October 25th, so many thoughts come to me about life and what it’s all about. As was shared in one of my favorite films, Letters to Juliet: “There are two words what and if. Separately, they have different meanings, but put together, what if…they represent a longing of the heart…sometimes of regret about a time or moment that we wish we could have back.” Perhaps the sages were right: Live each day as if it were a lifetime.

Recently, because my life story, River of Jade, is about to be published, I’ve had the opportunity to take a closer look at the wholeness of my life, unfiltered with all its tears and joys. Sometimes, when you’re in the midst of life, especially when you’re younger, perspective is not as important because you’re so busy living and loving. But, as I’ve grown older, looking back seems so much more habitual now because of the possibility of my dying someday…maybe even today. And so, I see so much more and I feel more deeply about everything around me: little children laughing and playing, a smile from a perfect stranger, the way someone holds another’s hand, or the soft watercolor-like feeling of another miraculous evening sunset along the Berkeley Marina.

If I were to be asked what I’ve learned about life at age 76…it would be these thoughts:

After my mother’s murder in 1985 I thought my life was over. It was as if all that was innocent and that carried hope had died inside of me. And for the next three years I came so close to wanting to end my life so I could be with her. The pain was excruciating beyond anything that medicine could heal or what any therapist could ever help me to overcome. I was haunted by the idea that I should have saved her, protected her, even given my life for hers.

Every day for almost three years I felt so alone and empty, filled with inconsolable grief. I think that we each are faced with the loss of those we love and some of us…no, all of us are never the same again. I wanted things to go back to the way they were…before that moment. And even now, I refer to my life as what came before and what came after her passing. I am writing this because life is not easy. It would have been so seductive to have lived the rest of my life frozen in that moment, circling inside my anger; lost in the dark abyss of my sorrow.

In looking back, there wasn’t any one thing that helped me come out of my despair. Life isn’t that accommodating. And what I have come to understand is that there aren’t always immediate answers for everything that happens to us, no matter how much we want to know why. So much of life is a seemingly random accumulation of experiences that by themselves don’t make much sense, but as the years go by, seem to come together…molding us into who we finally become. My mother’s death led me onto a path I would never have dreamed of taking. One that touched the lives of thousands. How could I have known?

I guess life is like that…

I am reminded of a young, beautifully tender singer, Nightbird, who was dying of stage four cancer, who shared at the end of her short life: Sometimes you can’t wait for things to get better before you decide to be happy again.

And so, on this eve of my 76th year of my birth, I would like ask of you all to hold each person you love and each person you have been taught to hate and fear with the same embrace. And if you cannot, to explore why.

Someone once asked me what sustained me all these many years traveling around this country working on one of the most difficult issues – discrimination. I think I would have to say:

It was a dream that someday we could all be free to be who we are
and to be valued for who we are.

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Lee Mun Wah

Lee Mun Wah

Lee Mun Wah is an internationally renowned Chinese American documentary filmmaker, author, poet, Asian folkteller, educator, community therapist and master diversity trainer. For more than 25 years he was a resource specialist and counselor in the San Francisco Unified School District. He later became a consultant to private schools, working with students that had severe learning and behavioral issues. Lee Mun Wah is now the Executive Director of Stirfry Seminars & Consulting, a diversity training company that provides educational tools and workshops on issues pertaining to cross-cultural communication and awareness, mindful facilitation, and conflict mediation techniques. Thousands of people from government and social service agencies, corporations and educational institutions have taken Lee Mun Wah’s workshops and partnered with Stirfry Seminars & Consulting on their diversity initiatives...   Read More

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